tasha d.

Ok, so like alot of others on here, I did the real age test.  I am going to be 30 in Ocotber this year.  It said my real age is 24.7!  WOO HOO! I answered eveything honestly too! That makes me feel good!  It also said I could be even younger if I took a vitamin E supplement.

So, I weighed myself today.  I was trying to hold off til Sunday but I had to do it today!  I woke up this morning from a nightmare!  Not really, but it was a bad enough dream for me. It made me want to weigh myself.  I had a dream that I was being weighed by a doctor.  The dr was Hal Sparks. Ever heard of him?  Sometimes he is on those VH1 shows like I love the 90’s etc…..Well anyway, he broght the scale in and weighed me and I was 30 lbs heavier on his scale than mine! I got so freaked out in my dream that I found a whole bunch of girls scout cookies and started to pig out on them!  I woke up from my dream and it felt so real….I immediately when to the bathroom and weighed myself!  LOL!  So silly but sometimes my dreams feel so real!   

 So, as for my weigh in, I am still sitting at 141!  I know, I still have a few more days to lose before my weigh in but I am just a bit irritated because I have been eating perfect and working out alot and I am still the same!  I know, I know, I will be patient because that is my only choice! I am not upset or anything like that. I mean, I should be proud of myself, right?  I have come so far and I am almost there!  Well, I just wanted to share my test results and my silly dream with you all! 

Have a great and healthy day everyone! Let’s lose some more weight!!!

I am trying so hard to break out of the 140’s that I now have a small hear of getting on the scale!    Silly, I know. Sometimes I just go up and down with my weight and it scares me that I might go up any. I am doing all the right things to lose or at least maintain. I better lose, I am working extra hard, especially this week! I am right there at the edge of the 140’s….I just want to weigh in and it say 139~ I know, I am obsessing too much over a number but don’t most of us?  I am trying really hard not to weigh myself til Sunday. That is very hard for me to do! I normally weigh in on Sundays and then I don’t do it again til Wednsday…and then every day after that. I guess the only days I don’t weigh is Monday and Tuesday…..
Anyway, I know I am not the only one the fears the scale. Silly!!! I know I am doing what I need to do so I should stop being silly and get over it! UGH!
I am sleepy, I think I will try to take a nap. I did do at least 75 mins of cardio today and weight training. I am beat from it!
I think my blog sounds weird for me today…no, I am not on anything! Just silly today, I guess! Peace out Peeps!

So, I got back down to where I was which was 143….not only did I get back to it, I passed it by 1 lb!! I weighed today and it said 142!! YAY! I am so excited! I have lost 5 lbs since Sunday!!! Now, before any of you say, wow, that is too much too fast, I went back to phase 1 of my plan (Southbeach) and have been strictly sticking to it.  That is just what Southbeach does. (For me anyway)  I have been running more this week too!  I think that is giving me the boost I may need to keep moving forward with my weightloss. 

I had my original mini-goal set at 145 and when I got there, i never changed it or set a new mini-goal…….I guessI just liked looking at my weight ticker and seeing that I surpassed the mini-goal.  For some reason though, I was never really going much beyond it…..up and down with the range of 148-143 for 2 months! So yesterday, I decided I’d set a new mini-goal and strive to get there.  I set it for 138, which for me is my 50 loss mark.  I am now 4 lbs from it! My ultimate goal is 130……I really feel like I am gonna get there. It is so close I can almost touch it!  I feel really happy about finally moving forward, even if it is only by one pound.  I know I can achieve my goals!!!

Thanks for all your suppost everyone and the kind words of support you all give me daily.  That all really helps and means alot to me! I hope you all have a great, losing day!!

BTW: WonderWoman, the race is getting close……who will it be? lol

Hey Buddies…..So I see Dr. Marc has upgraded the blogs……Not too sure how I am gonna like this new system…..I must admit, I hate change.  I like to keep things simple but that is just  me……Anyway, I thought I’d try out this new system and put a blog out there.

Don’t have much to say really.   I am still fighting the same 5 lbs I have been fighting for about 2 months or more now.  I just have got to get it together and move beyond what I have already done. I will can can do it!!! Stay strong buddies and have a great day!

Hey buddies. 

rn

I was just looking back at some old pics of me and feeling sad for that girl I once was.  I don’t really have too many pictures of me from the past 8 years or so.  I hated to have my picture taken as I am sure we all have been that way. 

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I can just see the pain in my eyes and the sadness.  I was so depressed all the time.  It makes me sad to know I wasted so much time hating myself and feeling hopeless and lonely. 

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That girl is no more! Yes, I still have those days but I will never again waste anymore time being depressed about the way I look or hating myself. Those days are gone.  I never want to go back there again.  Food is not worth those hopeless feelings.  NO WAY! I think I really have this new lifestyle down! I know that I can continue on this way and it makes me feel great!  I love being happy about things now…..I wouldn’t say this all has just come from weightloss. However, it is all sort of connected. When I take care of my body, that in turn takes care of my mind and so on….

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These days, I feel so good and just can’t imagine ever not living this way.  I am so glad I found buddyslim back in February. You all have helped me out so much and I can never say thank you enough for all the support I have gotten here. My buddies have really helped to keep me going and caused me to never want to quit.

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I hope you all have a great day!

Yesterday was a good day for me. I have been looking for a new bathing suit. Everyone is getting frustrated with me because they want me to go swimming and I keep saying, I don’t have a bathing suit. All the ones I did have are now too big on me so I got rid of them. In a way, I was just using the excuse of not having a bathing suit so I wouldn’t have to actually get into one in front of anyone. I do feel good about myself but still have alot of flaws that I don’t want to flaunt.

So, I have been feeling really good about myself lately. My friend once again asked me to go swimming and again, I said I don’t have a bathing suit. Honestly, I have looked and just can’t find one I like! So she suggests we go to good will to look. I was like, yeah right, I highly doubt I will find one there that will fit, much less like. I am just too picky when it comes to bathing suits!

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So, I did find a brand new one with the tags still on it for $3.00!!  It is a tankini.  I will most likely never wear a bikini ever again and that is ok with me! 

It is cute and was VERY AFFORDABLE! Now, no more excuses! I must get out there and swim! EEK!

Hello buddies!!! It is a brand new day, a brand new week.  I am feeling better every day! Well, almost everyday.  I am nearing my goal and I cannot tell you how happy that makes me.  I never would have thought I would be doing this.  Even a year ago, I was still kind of feeling like I’d never even get close to my goal.  I had even lost 20 lbs then and still felt that way.  It is amazing how we can do a 180 with our ways of thinking.  I am a new person, both physically and mentally.  I am not as down in the dumps as I once was.  I am way more active and social than I have been in a very long time.  I just feel great! 

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I did the BMI chart again today.  I am in the “ideal” range now for my height.  I am so excited about getting out of the “overweight” range.  I am at 24.6 which is kinda close to the border, but none the less, I am excited about it!  Getting to my goal weight, I will be somewhere in the middle for the BMI chart.    I just like to see where I fall on it from time to time.  I feel great where I am right now.  It will just be added excitedness (Is that even a word) when I do reach goal.

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Well, I am about to head out for my new class.  I signed up for 2 weekly classes.  One is just step and the other is step and toning. Wish me luck! 

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Have a great day everyone and just remember to never give up on yourself!  Keep fighting and stay determined.  You can reach your goals! We all can!

I don’t normally blog unless I have something to say or want to get support but my friend send me this poem or saying.  I thought it was good so I wanted to share.

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To realize
The value of a sister,
Ask someone
Who doesn’t have one.

To realize
The value of ten years,
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years,
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year,
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months,
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

To realize
The value of one month,
Ask a mother
Who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week,
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one minute,
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second,
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

To realize
the value of a friend or family member:
LOSE ONE.

Remember…

Hold on tight to the ones you Love
Life may not be the party we hoped for,
But while we`re here dance

I looked back at my weight history today.  I realized that I had hit my mini goal on 4-29-07 .  It is a month later and I am trying to get back to my mini goal.  I have been going up and down with the same 5-6 lbs for a month now!!! I already knew that but to see it in front of my face gave me a reality check.

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I need to stop allowing myself to do this and move forward.  I am so ready to get out of the 140’s and on to the next set of #’s.  No more backtracking and “re-losses”.  I have been too nice to myself on the food.  I have been 100% Op all ths week and will continue to do so.  I am so close to goal but I want to be at goal soon.  I am tired of saying that I am so close to goal.  I can’t wait for the day I can Blog about hitting my goal.  I know what it takes and I will do it.  I will continue to do it when I hit goal too.  Never gonna stop!!

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I love my new life of being active and healthy.  I can’t imagine not being this way now.  I know I shouldn’t focus so much on a # but we all have that magic number that we want to reach.  I base mine on the weight I was before I had any children.  Back then, I was silly and thought I was fat!!! Crazy what we think of ourselves, especially when we look back on things from when we were younger.  I know my body will never be the same, but I have a new outlook on things and will be happy with myself.  I am happy with myself as I am now.  It has taken alot of work, both physically and mentally to get where I am now.  I am happy with me! 

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Hey all! I am feeling great today.  I am back to my weight that I was a few weeks ago!!! I am one pound past my mini-goal! I feel good and I am motivated!  Then here comes my mother to crush me.  Not really but it is hard to only hear what I “need” to do rather than how good I have done so far.  I know I am doing great and looking and feeling better every day.  I know that my mom says things because she is insecure about herself.  It still hurts though and makes me mad.  Today, I was carrying water in that I had bought from Sam’s club.  My mom was with me and she says, I know something you need to do.  Right away, I knew she was going to say something about my body. That is just the way she works. Sure enough, she says, you don’t do any arm weights, do you? 

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Uh, hello? I have been working out and doing weight training for months now!  It takes time! I said that to her.  I also said, I don’t need you to tell me what I need to do. She is well over 100 lbs bigger than me and in poor health.  She does absolutely nothing to get healthier, which is fine with me. I have tried to teach her how to be healthier, but she wants no part of it. So, I guess I have just let her be and she can do her own thing.  I can’t make her do anything anyway. 

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It just hurts my feelings and makes me so mad sometimes. Why does she always have to point out what I “need” to do?  She can never say anything good to me about my weightloss. I know she will never change and I will have to continue to be critisized.  I have even told hermy thoughts on the way she treats me, yet she still does it.  AHH!!!! I just want to distance myself from her and others like her.  She is my mom though, I guess, I must live with it and try to not let her get to me. It is just so hard sometimes.

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I won’t let her get me down though. I am happy with what I have done and continue to do.  I always have my husband and kids that support me as well as my great buddies here.  Just had to vent a little! Thanks for listening!

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Have a great night!