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Good morning buddies.  This week has been alot better for me than my last few.  I am feeling back to my old self again.  FINALLY!  Took me a few weeks, but I think I am good now.  I feel really good today. On cloud nine for some reason.  Not complaining, I love this feeling.  (Yeah, maybe next week, I will be bloggin about being down again….never know) Right, now is what I will take though. 

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I am sure you all know and I don’t have to tell you,  but being down and out of it will sure take the wind out of your sail.  It is hard to get back up and going, even if you start out with the best intentions.  Last week, I was determined to get back to things, but it was so hard.  I kept falling back down. This week, has been easier but I still had to fight some cravings. The important thing is that I did fight them…..it was very hard at times but I knew that if I caved, I would not being going in the right direction.  I did have a small cave one night with 2 McD’s chicken nuggets.  I stopped there though and left it at that.  In the past, a small cave turned into a huge cave and then all hell would break lose.  Not anymore, I am DETERMINED to keep fighting! 

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My goal for myself was to lose 10 lbs this month.  I had gained about 6 back when I was down. Part of those 10 lbs was the 6 I had gained. So, I may or may not meet my goal for the month but I am happy to say that I have lost 5 of those 6 lbs.  Almost back to where I was and I am happy about that.  My weigh in day is tomorrow and maybe I can be down another pound by then, but if not, I am happy with what I have acomplished this week.

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Thank you everyone that helps keep me going.  I thank you all for being there for me when I am up or down.  I hope you are all doing well and staying strong.  It can be done buddies!!! Have a great Saturday!

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Hey buddies and Happy Mother’s day to all of us Mother’s out there!  I hope you all have a great day.  Mine will be just another day. Hubby has to work~  : (  We did celebrate his birthday yesterday though.  Yes, I made him a chocolate cake and I had some.  It was pretty good too but I got rid of the rest of it so it wouldn’t be sitting here.

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Anyway, I wanted to blog today because I have not been feeling like myself lately.  Maybe it’s because I have been kind of MIA on buddyslim this week, I don’t know. Maybe it is TOM’s fault I have been so emotional. When can we find a cure for the TOM blues? My UTI is gone now. (I think)  I feel better physically, but mentally I feel like I am starting all over on my weightloss.  I know that I am not,  but this past week has just felt draining to my mind.  I had managed to lose 3 lbs of the 5 I had gained from being sick and not eating right or working out.  Well, today I weighed myself, I gained back those 3 lbs plus 1 more.  That is so depressing to me.  I know what I have to do and I will do it!  I know that for me, it is relatively easy to drop those few pounds gained back.  No problem there. The problem for me is getting the rest of the pounds off.  About 3-4 weeks ago I was almost out of the 140’s and now I am back in the 150’s. UGH!  I did it to myself and now I  must undo it!  I will buddies!!! 

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I re-joined the challenge to help keep myself in line and more accountable.  I allowed myself to be more flexible since I no longer had a team counting on me.  I can do this alone, but why?  It is more fun to have a team of people cheering you on and vice versa.  Even if you aren’t on a team, it is fun to have people on your side knowing the struggles you have.  Thanks everyone for always supporting me no matter if I am feeling up or down. 

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Have a great day buddies!!!!

Hello buddies. 

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I am feeling down and out.  Part of it I must say is from this nasty UTI.  I let it take me out mentally as well as physically.  I feel down in the dumps about it right now. I just want to vent so here it is. 

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I feel like I am letting myself down as well as the “wildcats”.  I left the challenge.  I feel like I need to get myself well again and then get back to fighting.  I know I will get back up an move on but I just wonder how long I will allow myself to stay down. I have never done this well at losing weight and getting healthy than I have in the past few months. (since joining buddyslim)  I am doing so well, yet I am backtracking right now. I just want to move forward.  I know I will, but I am just down and out.  Thanks for always being here buddies to help lift me back up. I know I have to be the one to get back up, but it always helps to get support from people that know what you are going through.

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Thanks for listening to me rant and wallow.

Hey buddies.  I hope you are all feeling great and healthy.  I have a downer kind of blog today.  Earlier this week, I started feeling the symptoms of Urinary tract infection.  I had 2 really bad ones about 9 years ago, both of which landed me in the hospital.  I have not had any since then except for now.

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The pain is so horrible and I just can’t manage to workout.  Our insurance changed a while back and I had to get a new doctor but I have not yet been to the office. I called to get an appointment but since I am a new patient, I had to wait for them to call me back and tell me if the’d accpet me. So, now I can’t get in until Monday.  Anyway, I weighed myself and I went up 4 lbs as of yesterday.  I was 1 lb past my mini-goal.  And now I am 3 lbs above it. I am sure it has to be water weight.  I am downing water and just not going to the potty as much as I normally would.  This is so frustrating.  I know once this infection goes away, I will be back on track and hopefully the weight will move again. Until then, I am at the mercy of this mess.

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I removed myself from the challenge (Jags vs. wildcats) until this clears up.  I don’t want to hold my team back. I will be back though. I am down,  but not out.  So, I did change my weight ticker to reflect the stupid weight I gained. I have been flirting with the same 5 lbs or so for the last month or more.  I just realized this.  I thought I was doing better than that. I will not be down about it though.  I will just kick my game up more when I feel better.

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I am hoping to be back to my old self and routine by Monday. I am taking OTC stuff right now until I get to the Dr.  UGH! I need to shop or something to make myself feel better.  Something for my mind anyway.

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Have a great weekend everyone and stay healthy!!! Oh yeah, happy cinco de mayo tomorrow!

Hi buddies!!! I hope you are all having a great day.  I am and I just wanted to share.  Never have I gotten so many compliments in one day.  I never get them and that is why it felt so awesome to get 4 today!!!  The trainer at the Y told me I was looking awesome.  That felt good and made more work harder. I felt like pushing it harder just from the one compliment.  Funny how that   works.  Another person (A friend of my mom’s) said I was looking skinny, wasting away. (In a joking manner) and then 2 guys I grew up with stopped by that I have not seen in a few months. They both asked me how much weight I lost and said I was looking good.

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I am not in any way trying to toot my own horn, OK, maybe just a little, but I feel like I am on cloud nine! It feels so good for people to notice all your hard work.  I fell awesome today and wanted to send some awesome vibes out to you all! ~~~~~~ ~~~~ There you all go! Have a great night buddies!

Hello Buddies!!!  First off, I am so very happy today!!!  I have met my mini-goal and passed it by 1 lb!!!!    Yesterday, I went through all of my clothes.  I was trying things on that used to fit me and they all fit me again! Some of them were even big on me!  I also had to finally take all of my clothes that are too big on me and store them away until I donate them.  That was just a great feeling. Made my day.  (Well until towards the end of my day.) I say this all the time, but will say it again. I CAN’T BELIEVE I AM FINALLY DOING THIS!!!!!  I feel so accomplished on the weight loss front.  I still have 14 lbs. to go to get to goal and I will do it! You all have helped me so much!  A special shout out to a great buddy of mine, Wonder Woman!!!  I think I will just start calling you JJ.  LOL. You have really helped me with all our chats. Especially last night. Thank you.

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New subject:  My last blog was about my friend. The one that never supports me.  Last night I finally spoke to her about all the things that she has said or done lately that I felt hurt by.  I got it all out.  I told her that I feel things have changed, we have changed and that I feel I can no  longer be myself around her.  She did apologize to me but it was less than heartfelt. I guess we can remain aquaintences (spelling?) and even just basic friends but I can no longer be as close to her as we once were.  It just isn’t there anymore. That makes me very sad, but it will be ok. I am sure better in the long run. I won’t allow her to hurt my feelings anymore this way.  I was very upset about it last night and still am kinda sad, but they say time heals everything. 

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Well, I hope you all have a great Sunday!!!  Enjoy your success and if you are not having any right now, Cheer up!! You can make it happen!!!!

Hey buddies.  As some of you may or may not recall, I have a BF that is……well we will just say she isn’t very supportive or encouraging to me on my weightloss.  I had in the past mentioned to her that when ever she is ready, I would workout with her.  Time has gone by and she never showed any interest in getting fit or losing weight. 

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So, out of the blue she calls me today and says that she joined the Y today and wants to workout with me.  At first, I was excited. Then I got a little worried.  I love to have someone to talk to when I workout but I still want to do what I want to do. It may sound mean but I don’t like anyone slowing me down or holding me back on my workouts. I did tell her I’d workout with her. This was more than a year ago when I said this. I am in a different place now with my workouts than I was back then. Yes, I am selfish that way, but I have to be or the job doesn’t get done. So we go workout and she is holding up pretty good for not working out a day in her life. Towards the end of our workout we decide to walk outside.

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We are walking and talking and I tell her that I am about 16 pounds or so from my goal.  Instead of her being happy for me she says, “You may never get there.”  OMG!  I know she did not just say that to me. I should be use to her not saying anything about noticing my weightloss.  It just sucks so bad for my supposed BF to not support me on this.  I guess the saying is that if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.I would never hurt her like she does me.  Sometimes I wonder why we are friends and have been for so long.  I have really been considering putting some distance between us.  Not only for those reasons but there are several others. I will get to goal and I am sure of that.

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Thanks for reading if you are still doing so.

Hey buddies.

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Sorry if I seem to be a broken record.  I am just so proud of myself for finally getting this weight off of me.  I feel, this time that I have finally turned a new leaf and I plan to stay on the good side of it.

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I have tried so many times in at least the past 4 years to lose weight.  The most I had ever done at one time was 20 lbs, only to gain it back due to pregnancy.  (Plus alot more)  I know I will keep it off this time! No more babies for me!  I have given up on myself so many times before.  Not this time!  I am loving the progress I have made.  I am 16 lbs from my ultimate goal and 1 lb from my mini-goal.  Had you asked me 2 years ago, or even justa year ago I would have told you that I would never get there.  I am gettting there.  I am loving my new body and my new outlook on things.  My attitude is so much better now too.  I am no longer full of the self hate I once had and it shows. No, not in an arrogant way, but in a more caring and kind person. (Not only to everyone in my life, but to myself. Yes, I do still have bad days, who doesn’t?

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I have just learned how to handle those bad days a little better than I used to.

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For those of you out there that feel it is hopless, IT IS NOT!  Stay strong and stay focused on your goals! You will get there!

Hello buddyslimmers.  I just got home from a very hard and exhausting workout.  I just took a shower and I am feeling really good.

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I used to be so down and depressed about my body.  These days, I must admit that I am starting to like…..or should I even go as far to say Love myself again.  I have lost, to me alot of weight and for the longest time (even still do at times) have felt like the “Fat” me.  I know I am wearing smaller clothes and can tell I have lost, but I still get that “FAT” feeling.  I sometimes am still in the mode where I go straight to the “Plus size” section when I shop.  I really am not in those sizes anymore. For some reason, I cannot make the switch in my brain.

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With all that being said, tonight, I realized for the first time that I am doing great and looking better than I have in about 8 years. I know alot of people have had a lifelong struggle, but I must admit, I have not.  I have spent the better part of my 20’s being overweight though. I have wasted my 20’s hating myself and being depressed about it.  NO MORE!!! I wasted so much time hating myself that I should have been more focused on my children and husband.  I am done with those days! So long!!!

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I am loving what I see in the mirror.  Yes, I still have a ways to go but I am proud of the progress I have made.  I love it!  I used to think it was hopeless and could never be thin again. Now, I know better.  I am trying to get back to my “Pre-Baby” weight.  I was really skinny in high school and don’t even have thoughts about getting back to that.  I realize now that I was way too skinny then.  I have grown as a person and just want to be healthy now.  I am getting there! 

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Thank you to all of my buddies that help keep me motivated everyday.  I know I could still do it on my own, but you all make the ride so much easier and more fun! Thank you!

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Have a great night buddies!!!

      This may be silly to some of you but I just had to do it!

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WonderWoman, you are great!!! You may be tough sometimes but you   make me laugh!!! Even on my down days, you find a way to make me laugh!! I wanted to announce it to the buddyslim world!!! Girlfirend, you are hilarious!!!!  Don’t be thinking though that the violets are gonna lay down for you!

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That’s all, now go about your day!